A New Start

勇气呢？

2009-08-14T23:03:00.003+08:00

Yes! I have finally decided to go on and put braces for my buck tooth from young le. lol well but that will only happen next week. For now im stuck wif some rubber separator between my teeth. First day it was all rite, in fact no pain at all, SL must be quite disappointed tat i din feel any pain tat day lol. In fact i dun even need 2 extract any tooth cos my case is reverse from others, instead of crowded teeth, i have a large jaw tats why my teeth all cant make up the space hence alot of gaps. Wel 2nd day which is today is hell during mealtime. i finally know wat SL mean le, now even eating is a chore. Well finally go on to do something which i always hesitated 2 do, probably stingy.

其实，我已经很久没有以华文来写Blog了，不过今天我会尽量写好一点。很久以前，有人说过，我的blog 很特别，因为有用很多语言来描述我的人生与心情。我也突然发觉很久没有这么做。其实直到最近，我才发现我自己已不小心喜欢上了可爱的她。我也不知何时开始就有这种感觉，但虽然我不知她是否是这样想，可能就只是我自己想太多吧。也许从一开始我就只是一个好朋友。

All rite, i realise my pinyin realli CMI, beta stop torture ppl eye le.
Wel for now, i just dun have e same courage 2 to show my inner self le, maybe old le, not as daring as b4 le.

Sch starting!!!

2009-08-01T20:29:00.002+08:00

Cant believe im gonna start sch on mon evening le. Today went for a veri short shopping trip wif wb, n he finally got the cup he wan for his gf, haha. And now im back at home, bloggin wif half an hr left b4 i go to work later lol. anyway thanks for the concern bro, im perfectly fine.

come to realise actualli among my peers, im someone whose can move faster than most of my peers. but its been more than a yr since i stop at the same spot le, many have overtaken me, n watsoever, but now finally im able and hav the new found courage to take the first steps towards the future le. I noe wat i want and i noe i will definitely get there.

Anyway i realise linkin park has been a veri gd medicine for me haha, feel pump up whenever i listen to their songs, like back to the same old days. Songs like 'in the end', 'numb' and 'somewhere i belong' still ring in my mind. haha well pardon my way of anger management too.

all rite i leave it at here for now.

Smiles!!!

Time to let go and move on

2009-07-31T04:03:00.002+08:00

Lately i really been very heavy hearted. actually saw her and her new boyfriend photo. Which reminds me that maybe i should finally let go of everything le. Every possession i have that reminds me of her, i should just let go le. even though now i really wanna find someone 2 talk 2, but its 4am le. Suan le, i already used 2 forcing myself 2 slp even when my heart really aching.

Its like a secret been kept too long, so long im no longer to let it all out anymore. i deleted her contacts from all source like facebook n hp... Maybe this is whats best for us ba. since she have finally completely move on le, why should i still be holding on. Its been 1 and a half year le, high time for me to look forward le. maybe she wasnt whats best for me after all. I must be brave at this moment, even if i gonna shed any more tears, it will be tears of courage, the determination to move out of this turmoil. sometime i really do hate the way god created me, why cant i be more carefree and let bygone be bygone more easily.

Took everything from the memory box and slowly dispose isnt as easy as i have thot, in fact i did it in a very heavy hearted mood. Every pieces of letters teared is like every night of sadness i have experience all this while, but still i believe this is the best way and the only way if i wanna to really start to recover. Na de qi, jiu yao fang de xia, if i cant even do such a simple thing, i really will be letting my late dad down. Im proud to be your son, for i will be much stronger in the days to come.

Still i must also thank all my friends and buddies for accompanying me all the way along this road of recovery, i noe i have not made much progress, but i assure u guys that i will finally learn to let it all go. For i noe the old louis definitely wont be so weak de. As im writing this entry, im actually slowly tearing pieces of the letters we used to share and dispose them.

School is starting next mon le, and i m really veri looking forward to it, the feeling is like a convict who just gotten out of jail, tat starting-over-a-new-leaf feeling. Somehow after i dispose alot of stuffs of the sad past, my heart got lighter, and i become more brave, I mean i been so moody for the longest of time, even JD call me the most emo guy she ever met. Well JD im gonna throw tat title away le, and realli thank u for the lucky charm u gave me, somehow it instill some new belief in me.

Actually i should be happy today, finally gotta 2 know i made some progression at work le, finally gonna take over my respective unit tml nite shift le, Louis time to be a thinking technician le!!! lol

I tink there are really too many ppl for me thank at 1 shot, but i decided to thank them personally when i gotta meet them. With u guys behind me, im sure i be able to get pass the worse storm de. And oso not to forget bout my family, my mum has always been the most supportive person in my life, she may not be the bet advisor, but shes the best listener (and the best talker). My second bro don mite look veri cold on the exterior, but i know inside hes a veri caring person for the family, but he too got his own problem to overcome too. As for my little bro ben, well just by lookin at him grow up makes my day, dun be deceive by his look, hes prob the strongest in the family, imagine losing ur beloved dad at 5yrs old, but what really make me happy was that hes finally getting wiser and more sensible le. Jia you bros!!!

I must admit i was realli at a struggle to dispose our photos, first i threw into the basket, next i took out, but finally i knew this has to be done. I cant say much, but i still muz wish her the best, and also be happy with your current boyfriend, may he be able to give you the happiness that i cant give you in time, sometime fate just are beyond our control, still i owe you a apology and also a thank you.

I shall make a promise to myself, i will not write any more entries regarding our past anymore, i will move on and find back happiness that i have been missing for so long till i forget how does it realli feel to be happy and in happiness le.

Cheers and be brave!!

You are not alone (by Michael Jackson)

2009-07-13T01:57:00.001+08:00

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

*veri nice song*

突然好想你 (by Mayday)

2009-07-03T15:43:00.000+08:00

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

Learning the hard way

2009-07-03T11:14:00.002+08:00

Sometime i wonder, why do god create human in such a way, whereby most of them wil only learn a valuable lesson after they have lost some important things and/or person in their life. Everyday we will get to see alot ppl admitting to their past mistake after losing something. I myself is no stranger to this scenario. In fact, it has always been the way i learned every aspect so far. Sure it does becoming a better person,but it also brought along alot of regrets and unfulfilled dreams.

I only learn bout the word 'fillial' after my dad's gone. I wonder how much different it will make to my family esp my mum if hes still around. but well like all traditional chinese would say, if his time hes up, theres no way he can avoid the misfortune from happening. But still, sometime im kinda remoarse for not fully fulfilling my responsibility as a son when he was still around. I would have the thinking that if 7 years ago it was me who was gone, maybe the household will be better managed?!

I only learn bout the word 'finance' after a huge saving from my dad is gone. Sure i was young back then and may be forgiven for managing the fund well in some ppls' eye. but that does give enough reason for me to hate myself for not managing the fund in a responsible way. Til now i stil hate myself for that. And i clearly noe the whole different the money would hav make to our life. I mean after all, money is the fundamental source of problems and unhappiness after all, whether we wanna admit it anot.

Third thing which i learn is the word 'future'.and i only learn bout it when she finally decided 2 leave me. I was devastated and broken. i was helpless. Like the previous entry of my blog, i felt undone for, but i was wrong, the root of the problem has been there for a long time, but i din carry out any action to rectify it. And after all, it stil cant be separated from the word finance too.

Now i can only live all my past mistakes and carry on learning to become a better person, better anot its not for me to judge, but i know at least Im different from the past. And ya, the only fortunate thing which is another 'F' word which i knew all along is perhaps 'friendship'. Which ultimately have pull me thru all kinds of disappointment and regrets. And it is also this 'F' word, which make me who i am from the start, but i have to apologize too, for sometime i need to put work to priority to friendship as i really need to.

It takes me 23 long years to finally realise the F4 aspect of my life. sure i been a laggard in learning and i dont usually learn the smart way, but i know for sure i be there 1 day. All is not lost, and i know a miracle can still happen between us.

What we could have been

2009-07-02T01:29:00.003+08:00

Am i sick up there? That's probably the first question i ever wanna ponder and ask myself. I mean how long do you take 2 get over a heart breaking experience. Its been more than a year, 467days to be exact. Yet the day she told me those words are so clear at the back of my mind. At first i realli tot i could salvage tis broken relationship. I did all i tot i could, things tat i never tot i would do. Time n time again i get the words, time n time again my courage depleted, yet i keep trying, until the day i really couldnt feel a thing, i knew i had lost myself.

Things she nv know n i nv told her came a little too late to be taken to heart. Its all fault 2 begin with, i always thought being faithful, treating u the best way, giving her all i can give, is the best of us. To be truthful, i nv been in a real r/s before this. There are some many uncertainty surrounding me and im not sure did i handled them the right way, but it all turn out to be incorrect. I overlooked something very impt. tat is our future. sure i do have my burden to take care of, but i know from the bottom of my heart i could have done beta in assuring our future. The day u left, i start to tink bout what went wrong, and i realise the most impt thing went wrong. it was then i realise shes not entirely wrong. but at the same time i felt hard done by, cos i know i definitely make it given more time, which was nv there.

So many days n nights have passed n i gotta say i still miss her. Sometime i just wish she will be there for me again esp on days where i have it rough at work or any aspect of life. shes a gd fren, a gd gf, and also someone who would heal my soul in the past. i really did love u with all my heart, just tat i nv done it right. Sorry. but now i know i gotta face the world alone.

Friends, dun worry bout me, its just that i finally have the courage to admit and type out an entry from the bottom of my heart.

__________________________

2009-05-26T03:39:00.002+08:00

I din name this entry cos i really dunno wat 2 write. veri vexed with matters of the heart. Everyday keep telling myself i can do it, but e thing is, can i? sure work is fine so far, but e future is of uncertainty.

Today i did something that i realli tink is foolish. I told some1 i have feeling for her though i almost know e ans b4 that. end up maybe i realli everyone gd fren. i admit she make up the bottom of my heart right at tis moment. but the thing bout me is, i cant express or gif some1 e feeling of being in love or whatsoever. I realli dunno why, 4 so many years, i nv been able 2 truly express the real me. n im begin 2 lose e real me after so many yrs of disguising myself. sure i made ppl happy, 4 mayb tts wat i do best, n mayb tats e only thing im capable of. Im not sure why either, i can console or talk any1 out of their emo state, but when it comes 2 myself, im helpless.

i feel like an empty shell, with the layer of disguise thickening ard me. Im such a gd fren tat i don't even have e courage 2 show love, even 2 e person who took my heart. Am i not supposed 2 b focus in matter of the heart? I been running away from failure in the past, always wont be able 2 make it to the finishing line, but this i told myself i must change, I muz stick 2 what i believe in, someone who i truly like, nv 2 give up after a failure. I dun wanna 2 be the same failure who hav lasted all these years. Sometime i wish im not me, i wish im not so gd at acting fine, not so gd at deceiving others that im fine.

and anyway, if u r so happen 2 b readin, i just wan 2 let u noe, i mean every word that i said today.

~坚持到底，就是胜利~

Life Update

2009-04-21T20:03:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, im back. n yes after so damn long. no la, just an recent update on my life lately. Well as said ealier, i have finished my valueless NS. n got my first job at DHL. bt well that job only lasted a month. after that i have decided 2 move on in terms of the nature of my diploma. so i went to applied for ExxonMobil and miraculously gotten into the job.

Ok as if thats not miracle enough, during our 3 months of job training, i somehow or somewhat manage to kena 1 of the best trainees thingy. seriously i not sure how they judge, but well its as gd as it comes. Gave the voucher to my mum since i tot it will come in more handy 4 her than me.

hmm, another unexpected or should i say yet another miracle happen also ard tat same week. im not sure u guys know i have deferred my studies at mdis and decided to make the bold decision of trying my luck against the great admission wall of the part time chemical engineering at NUS. well FYI, the entry criteria comprise of a foundation course, a admission test and last but not least an 'intimidating interview' lol. N another thing is that this is actually my 2nd attempt in entering the course le, the first attempt was.. well quite unsuccessful in a sense. but the thing is i did just as bad in the admission this time round as compare to the first. but out of nowhere they just notify me that i have gotten into the course. WTF

this come as a shock as i strongly believe that most of my peers did better than me. at first i tot it mite have somethin to do with where im working, but then again 1 of my colleagues whos more experience than me din make it. seriousli i cant describe the feeling when i got the news. cos actually i can only deferred mdis studies to a max of 1 yr. n IF i dun get in tis time round, i prob gotta give up le n return to mdis. not tat pharmaceutical management is not as gd, but biology is nv my forte, in fact im a idiot in it.

So to summarise the first quarter of this year 2009, i muz say im quite pleased. its a big imporvement as compare to last year which was 1 of the lowest year for me, which include heartache, tears, constant failure, non-regconition and alot stuffs.

heartache i guess prob u guys shud noe bout it, constant failure was due to failure in insurance, MLM kinda shit. both started realli promising, but ended up shattered. as non-recognition, well thats probably what happen in the valueless army. theres just 1 matter in my heart that is not settled. and im still seeking solution 4 it. hopefully i can find an answer soon. and to my frens who seem to be tired or even sick of me saying bout my no life, i hope u guys can understand what i been put thru, if not maybe u mite even wanna start to qn urself r u reading the right blog of tat 'fren' of urs.

ok enuff stuffs today, i be back another day, hopefully sooner than 3 mths. i shall try 2 make an effort to blog regularly now.

--OFF TO WORK--

Simplicity is happiness?

2008-12-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

Alot ppl ard succeeded in achieving their goals, at the same time, alot ppl ard me oso fail 2 achieve their goal. wat realli constitutes of success in life? is it reachin a goal? is it being able to achieve financial freedom? or is it bein able to be with your loved ones? hmm i seriousli dunno. but to me, im ambitious at the start, but it seem i mite have finally lost tat fire in me after so many defeats.

now, i realli tinkin of way 2 reignite tat fire in me, e confident yet siao-on louis. now im more like a shadow of e past. seriousli, from wat i believe, success is oni measurable by individual basis. whether he/she achieve success, its ultimately on wat kinda n level of goals he/she set.

for those who r successful in life, congrats n i believe u deserve for wat u hav today. as for those who hav yet 2 achieve wat they desire, keep on jiayou, u wil make it de, even if u dun or mayb u wanna change ur goal setting, 追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了.

笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐这才叫做意义

hi im back!

2008-12-02T00:45:00.002+08:00

well its been a boring month 4 me, at least got a fren ask why e blog suddenly become deserted n abit boring, well i do admit its abit boring tis month, nothin much actualli happen, nothin bad, nothin good.

dunno y, my life became too quiet suddenly. no new things or ppl come in, no ppl or things go out of my life. its more like my life became deserted rather than the blog. ok la, heres a summary of wat e little things tat happen tis month. been busy findin job n goin 4 math foundation program at nus. hopefully can pass the math admission paper. den gotta pass the insurance module 9, which is a paper u need to pass if u wanna become a insurance agent. it did come across my mind 2 b a insurance agent, but well my ideal job of course is stil 2 b in the petrolchem field which is related 2 wat i gonna study in e future.

hmm gotta admit its been a quite bad year for me, maybe as bad as 5 years ago. where am i realli headin to in this life, and who wil i find in e end. ppl left, ppl come, but i am stil who i am, or am i stil e same louis. to alot ppl, i hav change, 2 myself, im stil e same old louis inside, but i cant act as i wan with so many obstacles. well tis yr gonna end soon, mayb in e new yr, things wil change 4 e better. hopefully only ba.

suddenly i feel im oni gd at hearin out others' woes. once a fren say im a gd listener, but e problem is i share with so many ppls their woes, but wat bout mine. i hav nv been able 2 fully express myself in front of others, e oni person who manage 2 open me up e most is prob not ard in my life le. y am i created tis way, y am i always findin it hard 2 get e msg n tots thru. i can oni shield myself from others with all e jokes and theory i have, which most of the time dun comprise the true me. sure it does feel gd 2 make others happy. i nv lie bout the fact tat i actualli feel realli satisfied n content when someone laugh bcos of me n wat i said. sometimes i realli feel like a clown, tis whole life is a joke 2 others. it brings happiness n laughter 2 every1, mayb except the 1 person who make them. wat am i actualli make of?? 2 me, true feelin r nv to be convey, true weakness r nv 2 b revealed, true secret r nv 2 b told. fallin for the wrong person is no coincidence 2 me. nv been able 2 b myself in front of the rite person is no stranger 2 me, and i do admit tat.

mayb i too long nv blog le, tts y suddenly alot 2 say, i dunno when i wil blog again, hopefulli soon, if u could understand me by a single bit more, i wil b more than glad le, cos i cant help myself in expressing.

冲动

2008-11-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松
忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂
我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我
你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

对的人??

2008-11-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

Once, my best friend ever told me, what i need is someone who will laugh at my jokes, not someone who will only know how to make me smile but dun appreciate what i do and say, i wonder how true is tat.

Signing off,
L

the biggest gamble of my life?!

2008-10-31T22:27:00.002+08:00

okok, first of all, im finally reborn back to civilian life le!!! ORD lor!!! but here comes the headache, which is finding a full time job that can cater to my part time tertiary studies ba. sibei sianz n low. but well, theres always ups and downs in life i guess. I personally feel that 2008 is one of the lowest years in my life, alot of things happen, most of all are bad i guess. well after struggling with the decision for almost half a year, i finally came up with the decision(or shud i say gamble in some ppl view), i defferred my studies in mdis and choose to enrolled in NUS part time chemical engineering. Its true, i got the result le, i couldnt get in the jan intake cos i din go 4 the foundation prog and flunk my admission test i tink. haiz..

But i will still try 4 the aug batch. another big problem now im sure u guys noe le. Im still looking for job now, although its merely a week since i ord, but with the economic so bad, i tink i cant afford to wait for the rabbit/hare to hit the tree(shuo zu dai tu)... got a few offer though, so im actualli considering the factors like pay, location n most imptly can it accomodate my studies in the future. haiz tink i gotta find a job real soon, if not i mite need to practically and physically eat grass very soon lol.

haiz, i noe im kinda stupid to do it, but i just wanted to talk to you ba. tink i gotta control myself better, maybe i shudnt initiate, but how can i let you know my true feeling...

Signing off,

L

说好的幸福呢

2008-10-31T22:15:00.000+08:00

你的回话凌乱着在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱着在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

Damn nice song by jay!!

给我一首歌的时间

2008-10-26T22:27:00.001+08:00

雨停下的天空灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这世界上
我晒干了承诺灰的更冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过

在一起吵分开了错
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好我能承受
在最后的出口再爱过了才用

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑的心依然勇气当作鄙夷

被淋湿的天空灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了承诺灰的会很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过

在一起吵分开了吵
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好我能承受
在最后的出口再爱过了才有用

你说我不该不该
不该在这个时候说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我只有阴天的回忆

你说我不该不该
不该在这个时候说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
你说我不该不该在这时候才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
我只有阴天的回忆

A hard day nite

2008-10-12T01:14:00.002+08:00

Wow finally reach home from a tiring bt fun day. wel actualli oso nothin much. but i do realise most of us(i mean frens ard me) hav sort of grown mature n somehow found each own way of earning in our own desired line of job ba. today receive 2 name cards in fact, one property e other one insurance. haha tink e name cards in my wallet is extendin my lobang list.

wel in e mornin rush 2 lavender ICA to collect my passport, only 2 realise i din bring my passport, lucky theres ard 400+ ppl b4 its my turn 2 collect my new passport. so i took a cab n chiong back home 2 get e existing passport(damn idiot la me), den rush back 2 lavender at ard 1pm. 2 my astonishment, theres still 200 ppl 2 go, n im suppose 2 meet vic, zx n jy 4 badminton at toa pa yoh. shit, lucky e queue no. jump very fast, so after e collection, i took cab yet again 2 rush down 2 TPY 2 meet e 3 of them. lol e badminton session was tired yet fun(lol 2 tink i injured my right wrist ytd n im here playin badminton). its been ages since i last play badminton(once my passion) le, so it does feel abit xiong running ard e court.

after tat, i realise im late yet again, so i took cab 4 e THIRD time of e day 2 vivocity 2 meet a few old camp mates to attend wq birthday at sentosa costa sand, wel e food was gd(esp e cake, damn chocolaty) n at ten plus, we decided its time 2 go home le. haha

so now here i am, after a taxin day, bloggin wif tired eye. anyway do check out my wholesale site, www.tong2tong.blogspot.com, for cheap xbox, ps2,pc and psp games.

signing out,
L

2 different world?

2008-10-07T12:21:00.002+08:00

Maybe the word affection have always been there or maybe not. are we two world too far apart?

Is it only me who have been carrying the affection you all tis while?

is it just my wishful thinking?

Maybe it all shud not have started? Mayb theres no link between us?

Theres so many qns i been askin myself. Maybe u din even noe i realli existed or maybe my existence is of no importance 2 ya. Ultimately i do wish u r happy at your world. I b living my world my way too. the day our world collide will be the day u know who i am.

爱转角

2008-10-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

我伪装着
不露痕迹的想在你身边
静静的陪着看着天边
骑着单车
往前行进着
某个路口爱在等着
你往前走
不回头看了记忆的笑脸
缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得
让你孤单单的
我爱你的心牵挂着
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
在下一个路口幸福哭着说
心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美
心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎么说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美
爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
将寂寞孤单作废让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美

72 hrs awake?! (part 2)

2008-09-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

okok, i shall make this short, actualli oso nothin much. ytd evening i went to my sec sch class bbq gathering, 4E6 bbq gathering. so glad tat there r so many of us present. n its realli been ages since i last c tis guys le, n i realise every1 hav change so much, n now all of us hav become young adults le.

well after 2 long full yrs refrain from any clubbing. i finally agree 2 go club on e many request of my buddy, wb haha. after e bbq, wb n me rush down to Double O 2 meet up wif jj, well it does feel abit weird at first when i first enter, juz not so familiar anymore. met ZQ at e club oso, n from e news im gettin, hes realli a clubbin king now haha.

well after tat, went 2 eat bak ku teh wif jj n oso met a old camp mate,samuel lol. finally i took NR1 back home on a half dead brain. n finally, on sun 4.59am, i got my realli wel sought after slp.

ZzZz

L

72 hrs awake?!

2008-09-28T22:23:00.007+08:00

wel i gotta say tis weekend i realli push myself 2 my limit or sort of. as u guys noe, i din slp much while revisin 4 my friday physiology paper. haha after tat u would hav tot i would go back home n hav a well deserved slp. nope, i did not. instead i went to have ikea meatball lunch with lynn and meli b4 goin 4 some window shoppin at ikea.

ya 2 flowers and a dung lol. After tat went home 2 prepare 4 nite cycling at east coast. Wa i tell u 966 is one of e longest journey bus i ever take in my whole life. took me 1&1/2hrs 2 reach ECP. wel e whole cycling trip was quite a tiring one but it was realli fun, total there were eleven of us. n a realli big thank you 2 our conducting officer, jianming, for his comprehensive preparation of the trip. in fact its e first time i ever go 4 a cycling trip with a poncho n a well organised map given. in fact we were realli veri fast n efficient. we cover a total distance of 46KM in a duration of less than 5 hrs i tink. haha bt between 430am to 9am we were trying 2 find any interesting activities 2 do, since we can oni return e rented bikes at 9am. oh ya alex oso took some pics of the beautiful morning sunrise.

From this,

to this,

den this,

finally its up!!

to be continued...

sibei suay!

2008-09-27T17:39:00.002+08:00

wel i was suppose 2 hav my physiology and pathology paper on friday mornin, 10am. e previous nite i hav been revisin til late, say ard 4am?? n i realli make an effort in wakin up early at 630 2 revise somemore. n probably its e earliest i ever leave home 4 exam ppr, which is 8.20am. but guess wat, its also e latest i ever reach an exam hall. WTH. Here goes,

6.30am - revision start

8.00am - bath & etc.

8.20am - leave home

8.30am - reach bus stop, start to rain n downpour

8.45am - still waiting for bus no. 855

9.00am - still waiting for 855, argh!!

9.15am - the bus finally arrive, by then the bus stop is so damn crowded

9.25am - decided 2 gif up on bus n alight 2 flag cab at lentor area

9.45am - stil in e jam in lornie rd (seriousli tis jam nv seem 2 end)

10.00am - shit! im stil in e jam!

10.15am - one T-junction towards school

10.20am - stil at the T-junction (guess wat, theres a bus break down at the MIDDLE of e junction)

10.29am - finally reach exam hall (one min from kena dabarred!)

wel, when i finally reach, i was so rush tat 4 e first ten min i sat down there wif a real blank mind. all e stuffs i memorised r somehow temporary deleted frm my harddisk(brain). jialat but gradualli i manage 2 pick up e tempo le, bt it was realli xiong la. luckily e staffs allowed all of us, e latecomers 2 hav an extra 15 mins grace period extension on account of the heavy downpour. so overall i hope i will not do too badly 4 tis ppr ba T.T

Signing off,
L

爱相随

2008-09-25T14:18:00.002+08:00

hah ytd went 2 dig on my music file den i found tis song which is one of my fav songs lol. its abit old school though, but a nice song 2 listen 2. 爱相随 wa e video is damn old school too.

别想你忍不住我提醒自己
伤了心有些事也要过去
心很痛痛的不想再做我自己
别回头情己去绿已尽
很想你也不是因为失去你
爱了你用尽我全心全力
一生情只为这一次与你相遇
情难了难再续难再醒
人分飞爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰
我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不后悔
我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情你给了谁
我如何面对
人分飞爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰
我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不后悔
我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情你给了谁

Exam frenzy!

2008-09-24T22:09:00.002+08:00

wow first of all, my mind kinda heavy with after my 13 hrs straight crash course on AQM module ytd. gotta say im seriousli lack of slp, bt tats exam ba, so cant help it. ya i agree, 4 most of my life, i been huggin e buddha leg n manage 2 slip thru. so i pretty lucky i guess lol.

Wel cant believe im actually exactly 1 mth away from my exit from national service le. its been a long, tired, but pleasant at times road so far. wel tats life ba, along the way u tend 2 gain some things n also lose something in the process. wats most impt is tat we learn from e process. i mean tis 2 yrs hav been quite an eye opener for me on different ppl from different wok of life. N im glad 2 say i made more friends than foe(i hope none). Haha oct 25th, u r so near yet so far, gotta say its within touching distance le, hmmm how i miss my pink ic(mind you, it cost 100 bucks 2 remake one, argh!).

wel stil got another physiology ppr on fri, guess its another crash coursing day 4 me tml. i realise im e type of person which my study gene can oni b activated by gd food. so luckily exam is almost over, or else i mite need 2 consider extra gymm sessions.

something i realise, some things wil b urs if its meant to be, just b urself, living each day 2 e fullest. oh ya, work hard, but play harder k lol...

signing out,
L

tic tac dumb

2008-09-23T14:48:00.005+08:00

lol recently alot complaints bout certain feature on my blog. i guess without sayin, u guys shud noe wat is it. its e stupid tic tac toe ---------------------------------------------------------->

haha some told me they feel like idiot playin tic tac toe wif themselves. well i oso feel tat too... bt i b waitin 4 more 'idiot' 2 fall 4 it haha.

anyway ytd went 2 watch the movie of the jap version of meteor garden. e movie was all rite, bt i realli din expect 2 go watch e movie haha, luckily its free. ya one pt 2 highlight, e oni part of e movie tat i cant accept is e part where shancai punch e bear. tts totally absurd n hilarious... if u did watch e movie, u shud noe wat i meant haha.

Signing out,
L

~Love~

2008-09-21T00:37:00.005+08:00

sometime the person you love most, might not love you the most...

Dogged!!

2008-09-17T23:57:00.002+08:00

ok luckily tis incident din happen 2 me, or else i wil turn out 2 b e laughing stock instead, hahaha. it happen 2 one of my camp mates. somemore hes fastin, damn suay sia. 2 of my camp mates, H and Z, were walking towards a truck in camp today. but they realise something was not too right as they approach the vehicle. there were 2 ferocious wild dogs staring at them just beside the truck.

the next thing they noe, they were being chase by the 2 dogs le. they try 2 escape by running into 2 different directions. bt tink Z more suay, both dog went after him. n shortly after tat, he fell n his spec even flew into the drain, disasters after disasters. by then, we already tot he prob get bitten by the dogs le. luckily, theres this truck which happen to pass by came 2 his rescue. the driver horn at the dogs n they ran away.

Poor Z got bruises all over. bt he did get somethin out of tis mishap. 2 days MC... LOL

A new start!!!

2008-09-17T00:58:00.000+08:00

lol from today onward, and yes! i mean today, i will be posting nonsensical stuffs n updates on my life in this new formed webpage. but actually there isnt much update yet hahaha...

Gone is the old blog, e old news. now this is my official blog. hope 2 b updating some nonsensical stuffss soon!! lol cya ard.

Oh ya, for those of u who hav seen e michael jackson version of thriller, mayb u will find this video interesting. Thriller!